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What is Depression?

Someone may say that they are “so depressed” that they couldn’t get concert tickets to see a favorite band or “in a funk” because things haven’t been going their way for a while. That sucks, but it is nothing like having depression. In fact, it’s a little insulting to call ‘the blues’ depression or vice versa.

Depression, which is known as Major Depression, Major Depressive Disorder, or Clinical Depression is a serious, life-threating mental health condition. It can roll in suddenly and take over your mind and body like a black cloud.

When someone is having an episode of depression they may have trouble getting out of bed, going to school or work, and doing things they love to do. It can make life feel not worth living anymore. That’s pretty dark, but these days, most people recover from depression with therapy and medication, or both.

Is it normal?

Major depression is a common mental health condition that affects 6% of Americans each year— and half are between the age of 13 and 16.  It’s more common in women than men—though experts believe that’s because women are more likely to get treatment. Depression is a serious risk factor for suicide, so it’s very important to get treatment.

What are the signs?

When someone experiences these symptoms of depression, most of the time, for several months, it’s time to get help.

  • Feelings of sadness, emptiness or unhappiness
  • Angry outbursts, irritability or frustration, even over small matters
  • Loss of interest or pleasure in normal activities, such as sex
  • Sleep disturbances, including insomnia or sleeping too much
  • Tiredness and lack of energy, so that even small tasks take extra effort
  • Changes in appetite and weight loss or weight gain
  • Anxiety, agitation or restlessness
  • Moving and thinking slowly
  • Feelings of worthlessness or guilt, fixating on past failures or blaming yourself for things that are not your responsibility
  • Trouble thinking, concentrating, making decisions and remembering things
  • Unexplained physical problems, such as back pain or headaches
  • Frequent thoughts of death, suicidal thoughts, suicide attempts or suicide

How can I get help?

Anytime you are in crisis you can call or chat with the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.

It’s a good idea to find a mental health professional with a background in treating depression who has the ability to prescribe medication. HelpPRO, Psychology Today and the Anxiety and Depression Association of American can help you with your search.

If you want to get connected to mental health treatment center in your area, use the Behavioral Health Treatment Services Locator or call 1-800-662-4357.  

Comments

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  • Hannah bloom

    These description made me realized I do have depression because I can relate to all of these. Sad to say I’m one of those unfortunate 6% Americans. How can I get past it? I need help really badly. I am on a clean streak for not cutting for 2 weeks! Small progress but I hope to get past it one day.

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    • Thomas Payne

      That’s really good, Hannah. I’m so relieved to hear you are doing well with that!

      Even if you’ve lost that progress since you’ve posted, I hope you still believe that you will recover and heal. I believe you can, and I believe you will. I am a depressive, one of the worst that I have ever seen, and I struggle every day to survive and not give up on my life. Something tells me that I remain here on Earth to help other people, who are just as valuable or more valuable than me, with depression.

      My best, best friend once struggled with cutting. She was so scared. I hope you don’t feel that way. If you do, it’s okay… You can recover from that. And know that, whatever you have to do to stay alive and stay in control, we love you for trying. This disease did not come because of your faults. It is random and genetic, or based on environment.

      You didn’t choose this, but you and I still have to choose to fight every day. It’s horrible, and it’s not fair. There is still hope, though. I believe it.

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    • Arianna

      Arianna Arianna

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      I am 16 years old and I have depression, generalized anxiety disorder and social anxiety disorder. Everything started when I was 13. My mom and dad were fighting all the time and they decided to get a divorce. I could’ve dealt with that if it weren’t for my grandpa being diagnosed with cancer a month after my parents split. Then two months after my grandpa was diagnosed, he died. To make matters worse, my uncle was in the hospital at the time and his white blood cell count was so low, he could’ve died. Nothing mattered anymore. My grandpa was the person I talked to when things were going wrong and when I didn’t want to talk to my parents. I used to cry all the time. There was one time I cried for 3 hours straight and I passed out because I used up so much of my energy crying. Nowadays, I don’t cry very much even when I feel like crying, the tears won’t come out. I have that same hopeless feeling I did the day my grandpa died. I have been self harming recently and it feels really good and I’ve been able to hide my wrists a lot easier because its been really cold lately. I don’t want to have to show my parents and my soon to be stepmom more scars (again) but I can’t seem to stop. I don’t want to call a helpline because the last time I did, the police came to my house and escorted me to the behavioral health hospital because they thought I was going to commit suicide. I’ve been going on a lot of online support groups which helps me vent but this black hole that I’m stuck in isn’t going away. I don’t want to have to deal with this my entire life.

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      • Vibrant Communications

        Arianna, I’m sorry that you had that experience with the hotline. We are glad that you are finding some support groups helpful. Please know that if you do not want to call the Lifeline, you can chat with someone on our website: suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ The Lifeline Crisis Chat queues may be long so if you are in crisis and need to speak with someone immediately call us at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Please don’t ever struggle alone. Always, always reach out to someone.

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    • Spriy

      Spriy Spriy

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      Two weeks. Good on you for lasting that long.

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      • Vibrant Communications

        Thank you for reaching out to our community and encouraging others! Don’t hesitate to call the Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) if you ever need extra support. The call is free and confidential and counselors are available 24/7. You Matter!

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  • Michael Angelo Marquilencia

    I suffer depression. I usually feel empty, sad, that i am of no use to anyone & lonely (even though im surrounded by people that know me). I have tried to commit suicide before and, as you can figure out, I didn’t die.

    Depression is considered as simple “EMO” fad. No one has informed my whole country on how heavy depression really is. Our suicide hotline is not on or just non-exsistent.

    I really need help. I’m having a hard time coping up with everything that is happening in my life right now.

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    • Ashley Womble

      The Lifeline is there for you. Please call 1-800-273-8255 to talk to someone who can help you get through this difficult time. You Matter.

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    • Ryan

      Ryan Ryan

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      I’m thirteen and I struggle with depression. I’ve never been good at standing up for myself and am generally smaller so in fifth grade I got bullied a lot and just let it happen, I became depressive and was actively trying to find painless ways to kill myself, then, I moved and in sixth grade I had a fresh new start and no more bullies, lots of new friends to make, but now I’m in eighth and slowly realizing that this new school district isn’t any better, if not worse. I have no true friends and all these new semi friends really wish I could just leave. In the other district I grew up with those kids and often visited them but now I can’t relate when these kids are talking about stuff they did in elementary. I’m not close enough to anybody to go over to their houses or maybe Im just a coward. I see other people enjoy their summers and I’m just alone doing nothing social, which makes me want myself to suffer by not including myself in activities, how do I get involved and become more social.

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      • Ryan

        Ryan Ryan

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        I just realized I posted in the reply section

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      • Vibrant Communications

        Ryan, I am sorry to hear you are feeling alone right now. If you are struggling with some tough thoughts right now don’t hesitate to call the Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Our crisis counselors are here for everyone and anyone 24/7/365. They may also be able to connect you with services to help you find the social connections you’re looking for.

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  • Katie

    Katie Katie

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    I went to a councilor about my symptoms of depression a few months ago. We talked about everything that had ever happened in my life, and what horrible things I’ve been through. I explained to her how I was feeling empty, tired, and scared to talk to people almost all the time. From there she told me she wanted me to see a psychiatrist who would meet with me once a month to prescribe me medication. I found that the medication didn’t work at all, and neither was the counseling, so I stopped. Since then I’ve come to find that more symptoms from this description have shown up or gotten worse, especially the last one in recent days. I don’t even really know why I’m commenting on this. I guess reading the symptoms made it feel more real.

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  • Jess

    Jess Jess

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    I want to be diagnosed with depression before I say I actually have it, but I think I do. I also have suicidal thoughts and panic attacks. I want to get help, but my parents won’t let me. What do I do?

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  • Cherry

    Cherry Cherry

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    I have had Depression since the 3rd grade and I am currently in my freshman year of High School , it sucks so bad because you don’t feel like anyone is every there for you ,getting out of be, staying awake in school, trying to stop constant panic attacks, self harming and people making fun of my cuts and saying I do it on purpose, the world is cruel im ready to leave it. I previously (last winter) had suicide attempts and was taken to the hospital. I am hoping to tell my parents in February about my depression and suicide coming back they said i just gained there trust a month ago. Im just too scared right now,im trapped in a hole. someone help me please.

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    • Ashley Womble

      It sounds like you are going through a lot. It may be helpful to talk to someone at the Lifeline. They can even help you figure out what to say to your parents. Call 1-800-273-TALK.

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  • Kaitlynn

    I know I’m depressed and sometimes I consider killing myself but the reason I don’t call is because I don’t want my family to find out

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    • You Matter

      Hi Kaitlynn, The Lifeline does offer chat based services accessible on our main website http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org These services are available from 2pm to 2am every day of the week. If you have trouble connecting with a chat counselor (the queues can be long) don’t hesitate to call us at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Your life matters!

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    • samantha smith

      Ik and than it will be like everyone is watching u and some people say it’s for attention. idk what to do anymore, without my best friend I would probably be dead

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  • You Matter

    DJ, It sounds like you’re going through a lot right now! Please remember, the Lifeline is here for you any time day or night, every day of the year at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Don’t hesitate to call us, your life matters!

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  • kamrin

    kamrin kamrin

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    i cut… i do pills i drink i smoke i do alot to try and forget i need help

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    • You Matter

      Kamrin, No matter what you are going through hurting yourself is never the answer. The Lifeline is here for anyone struggling with difficult emotions. You do not need to be thinking about suicide to call us. The call is free and confidential, so don’t hesitate to contact us at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Your life matters!

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  • kamrin

    kamrin kamrin

    Reply Author

    i feel empty useless i feel as if im a waste of space , i feel as if my parents dont give a crap, i lost someone really close

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    • You Matter

      I am so sorry that you’re feeling this way. If you are struggling with some tough emotions or feeling lonely, don’t hesitate to call the Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK

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  • Deandra

    Deandra Deandra

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    I tried to call 1-800-273-8255 and get help but the lady who answered was no help. She only made me feel worse. She made me feel like no one is really here to listen to me.
    I’m not sure what to tell you guys, but honestly I would never call this line again for help. I’m struggling right now with depression which is causing my suicidal thoughts and can’t believe I didn’t find any help from this line.

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    • You Matter

      Deandra, We are sorry to hear you has trouble with Lifeline and we would still like to help you.. Please report your experience to suicidepreventionlifeline.org/About/Contact.aspx and we will look into it. We want to help you through this difficult time. Please call any time at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

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  • Brier

    Brier Brier

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    I feel more angry and frustrated than sad and empty. I feel stuck and unable to move forward. I have so many things i wanna do and i cant. I hate how my friends are so happy go lucky with their carefree lives and i spend my entire paycheck on bills rent and necessities. I can’t party or shop every weekend. Half the time i wonder where dinner is coming from because im so angry from being at work for 10 hours i spend my food money smoking weed. Which is a vicious cycle since im starving afterwards. I watched my entire life fall apart and have been trying to pickup the pieces since i was 12 but i just cant do this anymore. When can my life start? How much longer do i have to wait for something good to finally happen to me?! Ive wanted to die manh times including right now. But i hate pain and death just seems to painful to inflict on myself. No do overs either. Why am i doing all this if in the end im dead anyway. What is the point in feeling all this just to die in the end and hopefully but no guarentee to feel nothing. I clled the hotline and I know the girl tried to help me but i ultimately felt dismissed. Ive managed to find a decent therapist but i cant call her at 2 in the morning.

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    • You Matter

      Brier, It seems that you are struggling with some tough emotions right now. Please do not give up! Do not hesitate to call the Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) again! We are here to listen!

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  • Bri

    Bri Bri

    Reply Author

    Can someone help? I’m too scared to call the lifeline because I’m not suicidal, I just want someone to talk to right now. And the depression lifeline wasn’t working but I’ve never called it before. I’ve never called the suicide prevention lifeline either because I’m worried they are going to assume I’m suicidal without me explaining and call the hospital to come get me or something. All I want is to talk to someone about how I’m feeling.

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    • You Matter

      @Bri Thank you for reaching out to us here at The Lifeline, our crisis counselors are here for you any time day or night, every day of the year at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Don’t hesitate to call us! If you are more comfortable chatting online please use the private link below to chat immediately with a Lifeline counselor. If for any reason you aren’t able to get through don’t hesitate to call us. We want to help you. Your life matters! http://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp/FBchatterms.aspx or go to http://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ and hit the chat option.

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  • nazah

    nazah nazah

    Reply Author

    i feel like no one ever really listen and when they do its not because they really care they just realize i am alone and want to feel like a good person i feel as if I am in a hole that does not have a bottom to stop falling i have talk so many therapist and tried to evaluate why i continue to be depressed and it leaves me feeling sadder than what i was before i feel hopeless and if i do feel hopeful something goes wrong and reminds me how i am such an failure

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    • You Matter

      Your life does matter – call us at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) and let our crisis counselors help you find hope. Hurting yourself is never the answer! It can be scary to seek help, you don’t have to do this alone.

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  • Annabel

    Annabel Annabel

    Reply Author

    I have a good friend…. I’m not certain if they have depression, but they are sad almost all the time, constantly feeling guilty, saying that they’re a “worthless nothing”… While they have not skipped school or stopped any other activities, they hardly often complete their homework or classwork, they sleep very late and wake very early, and when injured they say that they “deserve the pain”. He loves a girl, and she loves him back, but anyone (read: ANYONE, no matter what gender or age) the girl spends time with or even mentions, he gets insanely jealous of… Occasionally I can comfort him, and another friend is even better at it, but happiness is very short-lived for them… Today was the first time they talked about suicide… I’m not certain if they’re serious, but I’m very worried for my friend… How can I help him!?

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    • You Matter

      It sounds like your friend is going through a tough time, we understand that you want to support them and the best way is to urge them to seek help. The Lifeline is free, confidential, and 24/7/365. Our Crisis Counselors are trained to help. Please consider referring them to us.

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  • Muawiya

    Muawiya Muawiya

    Reply Author

    I want to commit suicide, I don’t find a reason in living anymore! Im contacting you guys to help me, im not a US citizen though.

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  • Amber taylor

    I want to die, and I have no one to call because I have no phone,

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    • You Matter

      The Lifeline does offer chat based services accessible on our main website http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org These services are available from 2pm to 2am every day of the week. If you have trouble connecting with a chat counselor (the queues can be long) don’t hesitate to call us at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Your life matters!

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      • coryn

        coryn coryn

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        I feel like no one needs me, people tell me that they do, but i mean, im sure if I just disappear they would forget about me, eventually. I feel like im just a waste of peoples time. No one stays with me for a long time, but my best friend and I think she’s even about to leave me. and i don’t know what I would do without her. It would kill me.
        Everything I do, doesn’t matter, or I usually mess up everything. Even my dad tells me that I’m an idiot, and useless. he’s tried to help with my depression and he just says “stop being depressed” and I guess he just doesn’t care /:
        what bothers me most is that most of my friends have stopped talking to me, and hanging out with me, I don’t know what I did wrong. They just don’t talk to me anymore, I thought we we’re good friends.

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        • You Matter

          No matter what problems you are struggling with, hurting yourself isn’t the answer. Your life matters! In order to talk to a Crisis Counselor, please call the Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). The call is free and confidential; we’re here for you 24/7/365.

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  • Simon truong

    I am depressed. I have always been since 5th grade. My life is filled with a fake mask that I wear that is not the true me. The true me that is angry, guilty, sad, everything that makes me dark and filled with despair. I am currently 16 years old, but I feel like I’m 90 years old due to me being so tired, useless, and depressed. I have given up on everything. I don’t understand anymore, I am depressed and sad but yet nobody can relate! I work soo hard in school but although I receive great grades, I feel unmotivated. I have always wanted to die. I have the desire to commit suicide but I can’t. I love nothing. My parents don’t understand, I don’t know how to talk about it. I love school, but I cant wake up. I have been having insomnia. I am scared, I am shameful. I feel worthless. I feel used. My parents don’t understand my pain. They have sadly and depressingly burned my bridges….. Help me….. I have lost my faith in life. I work hard to impress my parents but I am rewarded with lies and hatred. Why must my life be filled with torment? Death is an option, and option that will let me rest in peace for eternity. I long for endless rest, endless peace within. But it is far fetched, especially for a weakling like me. I am lucky to have never used drugs, alcohol, and other means to let out my darkness. But currently, I have had a slight slight slight thought of a new outlet.

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    • You Matter

      Life may seem meaningless now, but we want to help you find hope. The Lifeline’s crisis counselors are here for you any time day or night at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Your life matters!, Please give us a call

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  • sammi

    sammi sammi

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    i am a young teen I do have depression i am not very suicidal. but even if someone is telling me i matter i dont feel any less worthless like, how can this person who barely knows anything about me care. i find it not very helpful even if a person at school comes up to me and says they care about me. Most of the time when this happens we have never even had a conversation they dont care about me as a person they just think its sad people die.

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    • You Matter

      If you are struggling with some tough emotions or feeling depressed, don’t hesitate to call the Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). We are here to listen!

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  • No Nmae

    No Nmae No Nmae

    Reply Author

    I went to a counselor for my depression and my anxiety and i just feel like worse…….I recently had a thought of committing suicide because of all the medicals my parents have to pay and I could barely pull myself out of that funk……..I need help…….

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    • You Matter

      Thank you for reaching out to us. Feel free to call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) so that you can find out what resources are available in your area. Your call is routed to the Lifeline center closest to your area code. The local crisis center may have resources such as counseling. No matter what you are going through hurting yourself is never the answer.

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  • Katie

    Katie Katie

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    I am a tween and I’m struggling with depression. Even in the best moments with my friends or when I’m with my family, I never seem to find joy. My depression all started with my brother being the older and more loved sibling. I’m not so suicidal now but in 2014 I did try suicide once. I have only told my closest friends about my depression and the one attempt on my life. I have been to my school counselor more than once and she just tells me to stay calm and be happy. The one issue is, that my school counselor is young and she gives no real help. I have been talking with my friends for quite a while but they only tell me to put a smile on and look happy. The part that I think that helps with my friends is that, on of them are also struggling with depression. My friend goes to a real counselor and she gave the advice that whenever I think of suicide or any thing that could harm me, to draw a picture and give it to her. She takes all the pictures I draw to her counselor and she tells him that the pictures are mine. He will give her information then she will tell me what he says. The one issue with me having depression is that I can’t tell my parents or they will think that I’m messed up or that I’m lying.

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    • You Matter

      Katie, please call us at the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. We are here all day, every day and night, to help you with your troubles. Call us now at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

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  • Joselyn

    Joselyn Joselyn

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    Can I get help without my patents knowing?

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    • You Matter

      You can contact us any time at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Your life matters

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  • Joselyn

    Joselyn Joselyn

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    Can I get help with out my patents knowing??

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    • You Matter

      Hello Joselyn, it sounds like you are having a really difficult time coping. If you need a little extra emotional support, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK. The call is free and confidential, and crisis workers are there 24/7 to assist you. The Lifeline is there for everyone.

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  • Valeria

    Valeria Valeria

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    Hi there. It’s quite hard for me to say this in the right words, but I think I have depression. Last year, I felt alienated, depressed, and hated. Most importantly, I hated myself and numbed my pain through TV and KPop. I lost myself. I went against myself. My inner voice seems gone now. I’ve realized this and don’t know much of what to do. My thinking makes no sense, I feel like a zombie, I contemplate suicide and I hate waking up. I’ve lost all interests. I think my family would think that I would be saying this as some sort of bs excuse but I really feel it. When was the last time I was happy?? Idek. What did it feel like?? Pls help me.

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    • You Matter

      Valeria: Life may seem meaningless now, but we want to help you find hope. The Lifeline’s crisis counselors are here for you any time day or night at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Your life matters!
      It’s great that you are reaching out and talking about your feelings and we would love to help!

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  • Austen Koepke

    I’ve been dealing with depression for almost 7 years and its developed into a unmanageable all encompassing mass of sadness and despair. It seems any attempt to help from either myself or others just fails immediately. I have great friends, a loving family, and everything I could ask for. I’m depressed because of how the world is and the fact that I will never be able to change it. How others act towards one and another and how society tells us what is right and what is wrong, I view my depression as seeing how the world really is and that everyone happy is just lying to them selves and blind to how unimportant there life really is. I don’t know if I can ever be happy ever again.

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    • You Matter

      Hi Austen Koepke, thank you for reaching out to us and it sounds like you’re going through depression for a while and having difficulties right now. I appreciate you being so open and honest with us. We are here 24/7 if you need someone to talk to and listen at the LIFELINE 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

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  • Lee

    Lee Lee

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    I hate this world

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    • You Matter

      Sounds you are going through a tough time Lee. Our crisis counselors are here for you any time day or night, every day of the year at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

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  • sister haleema counselor

    How can I work for You Matter. Im a counselor for a not for profit organisation and this is a field I am interested in

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    • You Matter

      Hi Sister Haleema, thank you for your interest in working with us. Our mission is to spread awareness in the community and show support to all those suffering and your help is important. Please use this link to find a crisis center close to you- http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/getinvolved/locator.aspx and contact them about any available openings. Your life matters!

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  • miracle

    miracle miracle

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    Hi my names Miracle ,
    I’m 13 and I’ve had Depression and many Suicidal thoughts for around 2 years now, I’ve tried to cope with it all in my head, but it’s really hard to keep all my anger inside and not lash it out on my parents or my little brother. I’ve tried to get medical help by asking my father if I can see a therapist, sadly he believed that I didn’t need help because I was HIS daughter, which must have meant something to him but I was lost by that comment. Apparently being HIS daughter meant that I was “immune” to suicidal thoughts. Next to being BI and having parents that don’t want to help depression has being aggravating, on top of all of that I have to act like everyday I’m “okay”. I honestly don’t know what to do. The national Suicide prevention line has always been uncomfortable for me, i’d rather txt all my problems to someone i can trust. Is their anyone i can text all my problems to?

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    • You Matter

      Hello Miracle, Thank you for reaching out to us and expressing your concern.It seems like you’re going through a difficult time. Please text your zip code to 898211 and someone will be able to help you. They are available 24-7.

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  • meg

    meg meg

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    hi im meg. i feel ive been struggling with depression or bipolar disorder, im not sure since i have not been diagnosed. my mother has borderline bipolar disorder but does not confront it. i’ve been self harming off and on for about a year or two, though i dont think they’ve been suicide attempts but more a cry for help. my mom truly thinks my life is not bad (it’s really not) and that i have no reason for feeling this way, i’ve tried explaining to her that it’s very possibly genetic, a few times she said she would take me to a mental health assesment place, but has yet to do so. she says my “mental illness” is controling my life and that there’s no reason for it too, overall i feel ignored and unloved, i feel as if i fit in nowhere and that i dont deserve anyone. i honestly hate everything about myself and just wish i was normal.

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    • You Matter

      Meg, I am sorry to hear you are going through so much right now, but your life does matter and you are important – don’t hesitate to call us at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Don’t hesitate to call us at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) if you need support, and so that you can find out what resources are available in your area. Your call is routed to the Lifeline center closest to your area code. The local crisis center may have resources such as counseling or in-patient treatment centers that you can take advantage of. We hope to hear from you soon.

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  • Cole runnels

    Hi my name is Cole I have been suffering from depression and anxiety and I am not able to sleep at night this has been happening for a year now I just feel like if I was gone Mabry the world would be better my mom and dad have just gotten a foster and she is 1 1/2 and she is hard to take care of and I feel like if Mabry I wasn’t here my mom and dad wouldn’t be stressed.

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    • You Matter

      Cole, Seems like you are experiencing stress and feel depressed due to what has been going on at home. We want to talk to you about home life and coping skills and anything else you need to talk about. Please give us a call at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). We are here for you!

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  • Mara

    Mara Mara

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    Hi,

    I’ve been on this site now for 30 minutes. I’ve been getting more and more depressed and crying as I read each post. I was never diagnosed so I’ve chosen to believe it isn’t real. But it is and it’s killing me. I see a therapist but I don’t think they understand how serious my symptoms are. If I were to kill myself and my parents found out, I know that I would miss out on everything for the rest of senior year and I don’t want that. Still, I don’t know what else to do.

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      Mara: We are so sorry that you are going through this, you do not have to feel alone, we are here for you. Please keep in mind our Facebook blog is not intended for crisis intervention or support services however the Lifeline counselors are here for you any time day or night at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). They should be able to assist you with any questions or concerns you may have. Your life matters!!! We also have chat services at http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

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  • Lizzy

    Lizzy Lizzy

    Reply Author

    I’m tired of waiting for things to get better, because I know they never are. The mental health system doesn’t care about us. Definitely not the military branch. I go in for a appointment with my psychiatrist hoping that maybe this time things will get better but they never do. I always stay in the same spot, occasionally changing medication. Even that is a struggle, my psychiatrist often forgets to put the new meds in. My clinic never answers when I need refills or having problems. I’ve been hospitalized once. Went to the ER for suicide/Self-harm 3 times. I’m just done. I never really wanted to die before. It’s different this time, everything just seems so useless. Life after high school, my dreams, ect. Nothing works out in this world. I’m considering overdosing on every med I was ever given tomorrow.

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      We are so sorry for your pain and the things that you are going through in your life. We, at the Lifeline, are committed to help those in need. The You Matter blog is designed to give youth and young adults a dedicated space to talk about mental health and issues related to their age group and stage of life. Please know that the Lifeline is available for individuals of all ages, any time, day or night, please Lizzy give us a call at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Your life matters!

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  • makaila.m

    its really hard for me to post something like this because all on my mind suicidal thoughts because of my depression, my mom wont take me to a councilor iv asked her multiple time but she never has time for me. i feel like i’m just a burden to everyone i,m usually in my room starring at my wall or cutting because no one ever has time for me im mostly by my self and i cant do it anymore. iv gotten failing grade since second grade because i felt worthless. people make my life for me because they say i cant take care of myself i ask them ” how do you know i cant take care of myself you dont talk to me you dont even say goodnight to me,all you do is watch tv do you love your tv more than us, me?”. people say everything gets better in the future but i feel like it doesnt ive mostly stop beleving in hope and hope for myself because everyone makes me feel this way. i have no friends in school because im bisexual i also bullied because of how i am and how i dressed. i always feel like im trapped in a pool of darkness. i just really wish someone could save me from this hellish world i just wanted to come to somewhere so atleast i could meet someone that understands. thats why i came here. i really hope i can talk to someone about this

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    • You Matter

      Makaila.m, we’re so sorry for all the struggles you are going through and we want to help. If life ever feels like it’s not worth living, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK. The call is free and confidential, and crisis workers are there 24/7 to assist you.

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  • Lex

    Lex Lex

    Reply Author

    I’ve tried really hard to believe that depression isn’t something that’s been crushing me every day for the past couple of years. Unfortunately, I fell upon this article and I’m kicking myself for reading this, but I know in the back of my mind that it’s real. I have no one to talk to – everyone sees me as someone who’s happy or even too happy – I just do that to hopefully give me some light, but it normally just hurts. I end up lying to my parents about why my face is swollen after a night’s worth of crying and dreams of suicide. I couldn’t dare to tell them the truth because I know how much it would kill them and honestly make me feel worse. I want to disappear because I only seem to bring pain and hard times to those around me. I truly am despicable right?

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    • You Matter

      Lex, thank you for reaching out to us. There is nothing shameful about depression. It is a treatable ailment, like all medical issues. Please consider being honest with your parents, and let them help you. They can’t know you need them if you don’t tell them. And please know that whatever you are going through, you don’t have to do it all alone. We are here for you 24/7. Call the Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

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  • Megan

    Megan Megan

    Reply Author

    I don’t even know who I am anymore. I feel so fake. I have to deal with an abusive mom who tears me down everyday of my life. She calls me ugly, fat, stupid, nasty… What she says is true because if you ever saw me you’ll probably agree. There was this one time when I snuck out of my house with my sister that she told me to cut my wrists..I didn’t tell her that I already do. I don’t know what to do half the time. I feel like the only time I take my mind off of negative thoughts is when I’m with my sister. But even then it’s fake…we play games pretending to be different people. We act really silly and stay up way too late most of the time. If you go by anyone who saw us you’ll probably say that I had a great life. My mom hates the fact that my sister and I are close. She tries to pin us against each other. She’ll tell her how much I don’t care about her. She’ll say she wants her to be nothing like me…believe me..I don’t want her to be like me either. To be honest, there have too many times that I messed up in school, but instead of wanting to help me, she tells me how dumb I am. I’ve been thinking of ways to make her like me ever since I was a little girl. I would close my eyes on a swingset and imagine life with her..if she loved me like a mother should. Then, I would blame myself for literally everything. I’ve been pulling my eyelashes out ever since I can remember…probably 5 or 6 years old. She says that I do it because I want to upset her. Ok, so when I was a little younger I started to believe that was true. So, I told myself that my mom didn’t like me because of my “bald eyes”. Not too long ago I did some research and found out I have what’s called trichotillomania. Huh, my computer just underlined that word. Why? Oh, I know why. It’s because trichotillomania goes unnoticed by far too many people. I haven’t ever mentioned the trichotillomania word to anyone..and I probably wont. Only because she’ll more than likely say I’m looking for attention, or simply just ignore me. I have seriously been thinking about killing myself, but then I worry about my sister, but then I realize that she’ll be better off without me. It’s a lot of mixed emotions and I’m sorry for wasting someones time that could’ve been spent doing something worth doing, but some advice will be deeply appreciated.

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      Megan, thank you for reaching out to You Matter. We are so sorry you are struggling with such difficult issues. Please know that we are here for you, any time of day or night, to talk with you and help you. Call us at the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). We want to help. Your life is precious, no one is better off without you! Hurting yourself does not solve any problems. Call us!

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  • Madison

    Madison Madison

    Reply Author

    I’ve been depressed for a while, and I don’t know how to get rid of it. I’ve tried so many different things, I’m more of an animal person rather than a people person so I tried reaching out to therapeutic equine centers which seemed to help for a little while but the closest one to me just went through a foreclosure and the previous owners have left. Any other centers are way too far away from me and I have little to no time to spend there. I’ve also tried volunteering for shelters as a therapy. I’ve never tried to find a therapist because I don’t want to bother my parents with trying to drive to and from therapists and I’m scared on what will happen if I tell them.

    I have no friends to confide in, and my parents are too busy to even spend any time with me which sucks but I know they try their best for me and each other. My only friend who is my cousin has basically gotten cut off from the world itself, and mainly from me. I haven’t spoken to her in over 6 years and she was my only rock, I’ve tied calling on her birthdays but my aunt is an evil witch and won’t let me speak to her because of drama between her and my mom. I don’t know what else I can do….. I just want a friend to talk to, and is a hug a little too much to ask for? Cause I could use one right about now.

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    • You Matter

      Madison it sounds like you’re going through a lot right now -The Lifeline does offer chat based services accessible on our main website http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org These services are available 24/7. If you have trouble connecting with a chat counselor (the queues can be long) don’t hesitate to call us at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Your life matters!

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  • Francisco

    hello I’m a 15 year old and I feel up the wall I’m usually a upbeat optimistic kid but I’m caught in a situation where I feel stuck and I know I might seem dumb to ask this and I also feel kinda ashamed and dumb to be posting a comment like this but is the hotline strictly for those who are in the verge of suicide or some sort of support hotline I just need someone to talk to

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    • Vibrant Communications

      Hi Francisco, thank you for reaching out. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is available not only for suicide but also if you want to vent your feelings. Please call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) We are here 24/7

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  • Moe

    Moe Moe

    Reply Author

    I can strongly relate to almost all of those symptoms. I am pretty sure I have depression, and I’ve talked to my parents about it a bit. Therapy wasn’t working for me, and I want a professional to confirm whether or not I have depression. But I’m really scared to directly confront my mom about it. I just want help, but I’m too much of a coward to go get it. I don’t know…

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    • Vibrant Communications

      Moe, we’re so sorry for the depression struggles you are going through and we want to help. Please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK. The call is free and confidential, and crisis workers are there 24/7 to assist you with this matter.

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  • Alphonso

    Im having a an awful time i have no one to talk to right now but i dont want to call the helpline because im too much of a coward to commit suicide i dont know who to call its 12 00 so i cant call my therapist

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    • Vibrant Communications

      Alphonso, we’re so sorry for all the struggles you are going through and we want to help. If life ever feels like it’s not worth living, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK. The call is free and confidential, and crisis workers are there 24/7 to assist you. We hope to hear from you soon.

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  • Mr. j

    Mr. j Mr. j

    Reply Author

    Hi im 18 and for 4 years I feel so stupid feeling this kind of matter, I lost everything my church ,my school,my family and myself . I just wanted to bring back time and start all over again or just end this fucking curse. I have no one to talk to, I cant even tell my friends or anyone about how i feel even my family cause really i tried telling them but they dont understand plus my parents are tough people and i already know what will be their response . I’ve been acting strong for a long time now,always back to lean on to my friends and family who suffered depression, always there when they needed me cause they said i’m the only one who can understand them. I was busy helping them and didnt even notice that i was slowly destroying myself my image for the sake of them. I changed a lot for the past 4 years ,started with feeling tired all day then here comes skipping classes to liquor,cigarettes,frustrations and etc. I dont usually tell people or write on these kind of pages but well i’m sick of my life, i just cant even have 1 fuckin good refreshing day . Everyday is just fuckin shit and i always fuck it up even more . This is just a quarter of my story ,let see if i’ll be back sharing even more or who knows maybe.

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    • Vibrant Communications

      Mr j, we’re so sorry for all the struggles you are going through in these different areas and we want to help. If you are feeling hopeless don’t hesitate to call the Lifeline. Our crisis counselors are here for you any time day or night, every day of the year at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

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  • Dena O

    Dena O Dena O

    Reply Author

    Everything just seems like it’s going wrong lately and I don’t know what to do. I haven’t done anything wrong. The teacher I had as a sub today pretty much made me cry, and I can’t stop thinking about it. I’m panicking, I feel like I’ve done something wrong but I haven’t. Some days when similar things happen that make me feel dumb, or depressed make me want to kill myself, but usually I just ask no one to kill me, and end my life, because I would never do it myself. Where can I go to talk about my bad days?

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    • Vibrant Communications

      Hello Dena, It sounds like you are having a really difficult time. If you need a little extra emotional support, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). The call is free and confidential, and crisis workers are available 24/7 to assist you.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Johnny H Lee moved on women. Johnny H Lee not a virgin. Johnny H Lee not religious. So stuff rubs the. Man doesn’t fit it just doesn’t. It was always like that. Not just recently. Johnny H Lee gained weight permanently. Plan to keep the weight on permanently. All that work that did for no reason. Finally something a bit a lot better than before. Finally I can fix my basic stuff.

    Johnny H Lee not wear his yoke. means I not read that book not religious it rubs the. Means not wear the yoke of the Bible James man Jesus or whatever confused not wear the yoke. I’m keeping my selfish ways. That’s funny. Johnny H Lee is not righteous. Johnny H.Lee Goes With Sense One. Johnny H Lee not righteous when I eat food with the spoon I eat with it inwardly I don’t dish it off onto the floor. I think it’s eliminate God the father or Buddha man. Johnny H Lee is darker is not supposed to be cold. It’s not supposed to be cold. It’s not supposed to be cold. Cannot bother silently either. wasteful abused something there’s no weak emotion return there’s no weak emotion return there’s no weak emotion return. I don’t like ferris wheel I don’t like aimless.

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    • Johnny Lee

      Hello how do I delete these. Is there any way to delete these. Just leave it on.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Johnny H Lee not talking s*** to the side just some stuff.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Cannot use me the Hollywood thing walking around stuff…. Didn’t say any names.

    Johnny H Lee I’m keeping my smartphone. No need to focus on my personal stuff. I didn’t say any names. When my smart phone is fully charged things go well. But I need to charge some kind of incident I walk around journey or something. Johnny H Lee I’m keeping my smartphone. I keeping it fully charged. It means do not interference with that well being.

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  • Johnny Lee

    No long run. No tolerance that to messing up later.

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  • Johnny Lee

    The flame…. The middle of the Dark by the color my jacket darker.

    The top orange the bottom of blue the top Mexican the bottom Korean….who the f*** told them that kind of stuff. It’s the other way around. Not food for. Colors of colors of different kind of colors of….not going to die for 3 blues or yellows whatever colors how many colors is the other way around. The confused. Not religious.

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  • Johnny Lee

    The flame…. The middle of the Dark by the color my jacket darker.

    The top orange the bottom of blue the top Mexican the bottom Korean….who the f*** told them that kind of stuff. It’s the other way
    around. Not food for. Colors of colors of different kind of colors of….not going to die for 3 blues or yellows whatever colors how many colors is the other way around. The confused. Not religious.

    When they hear like that. Perfect way of saying it was the most perfect way of saying it accident-free what I didn’t say any names.

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    • Johnny Lee

      It’s the most perfect way of saying it. Accident-free didn’t say any names.

      Johnny H Lee not Korean not wear his yoke. Johnny H Lee obviously keeping sex not overcoming it. Not repenting.

      Do Not Tamper With My Smartphone.

      Belong To Johnny H. Lee.

      There’s no -[Jesus]- ? -/- Venus
      There’s no -[Zeus]- ? -/- and -/Hera
      Passed over.

      Not building for heaven.
      Hello.

      F*** a testing a saddle ranch is yellowish a righteous types cannot.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Not suicidal not depression something else. The confusion I think it’s very dangerous. Because. From a standpoint…. Confusion could be dangerous. I think like a confusion I don’t like aimlessly. someone told me to wait 5 minutes to smoke but I’m still going to smoke in 5 minutes then wait 5 minutes smoke. Aimlessly I don’t like aimlessly.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Probably better…. Probably better real some stuff. Historian. Not playing who rots first.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Not at a disadvantage.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Johnny H Lee choice to have money…. Rich.

    There’s this little scheme about those righteous….When Johnny H Lee is not righteous. Johnny H Lee goes with sense one.

    Not suffer for the righteous.

    I never read that book….

    Johnny H Lee always like science fiction dark stuff like that. We’re not interested in that book. I don’t like that book. I’m not confused.

    Otherwise I would have a….

    Don’t use that against over here. The Buddhist man confused…. Not Buddhist man confused.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Man doesn’t.It just doesn’t fit. It’s not making story of it just doesn’t fit. Something about the man does not fit.

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  • Johnny Lee

    I don’t like those man that’s trying to threaten women. I didn’t say nothing about killing women or….

    Johnny H Lee be with women. I’m keeping women. Especially women I never give away. Not even as a gift. Any f****** kind of way.

    Not suicidal. Not depressed.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Johnny H Lee I’m keeping my smartphone. Permanent smartphone.

    They not get that.

    That is assuming becoming a problem.
    Not even a spark in the mind you cannot control like that.

    Johnny H Lee I’m keeping my smartphone.
    Fully charged. Things go well.

    That’s funny when I need to charge….some kind of journey or some incident.

    Briefs on the floor I don’t give a s*** who listening as long as it’s not interference with our stuff & well-being.

    What happened.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Not at a disadvantage.

    Johnny H Lee I’m keeping my smartphone. Permanent smartphone. And my life depends on it.

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    • Johnny Lee

      What I……They Garbage Skills Is Shit!

      That’s How They…..

      Management…Not With The Money….They Cannot Survive….Too Late…. Because Abuse Of Some….Going Push Them Off The Helicopter They No Fit….Not With Our Me Stuff.

      What Meant

      Tom Cruise Cannot Kill This Fool….

      Dropped Around Everywhere….Into Some Good Bad Police….. Johnny H. Lee Not Walking Around…. Choice To Have Money….Rich….Not Rot as No Beggar Scheme…..

      Do Not Betray Bothering SILENTLY Either.
      Not Tomorrow Either.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Hello how do I delete these. Is there any way to delete these. Just leave it on.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Hello how do I delete these. Is there any way to delete these. Just leave it on.

    Said They Cannot Use Me That Hollywood Thing….No Can Mess Up Later.

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      Johnny Lee, if you are struggling with some tough emotions or feeling lonely, don’t hesitate to call the Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). We are here to listen!

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  • Johnny Lee

    Tell Them Do Not Bothering SILENTLY EITHER.

    Johnny H. Lee Number Nine.

    Blasphemy against holy Spirit….Curse The Holy Spirit….Not Wear The Spiritual Yoke.
    Because It Starts To Feel Better. Not Suffer For Them.

    Also Said Cannot Use To No Hollywood Thing….Means They Long Run They Cannot….

    Not Messed Up Later Scheme.

    Time Of CONFUSED….. Johnny H.Lee Rejected Punishment. Not For Free…
    Not Give My Life To Those Righteous…. Choice.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Johnny H Lee they abuse and something…. cross the line….no weak emotion return.

    Johnny H Lee no trickery only what I want to do only what I want to.

    No weak emotion return no weak emotion returns. No weak emotion return no weak emotion return. Must have abused must have across the line something.

    Not religious not righteous.

    Who the f*** told them about the flame. The dark in the middle Johnny H Lee is the dark in the middle like my jacket color dark it blends right In.

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      Johnny if your struggling with an issue please reach out and talk to someone , The Lifeline is available to you 24/7. Your life matters. 800-273-TALK (8255).

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  • Johnny Lee

    Johnny H Lee smoking Stuff….where the f*** is my endorphins and fun and stuff going I that I need to digest in and gain weight and stuff.

    Cannot betray righteously. Johnny H Lee I’m keeping my wiko smartphone. Johnny H Lee I’m keeping my machines.

    It’s just the way it is.

    Johnny H Lee smoking is Okay.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Don’t do that not very nice.

    Because….

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  • Johnny Lee

    It iAmple amount of time see…. Don’t blame Sherilyn Fenn don’t blame Johnny H Lee.

    Now that’s been explained.

    Money ties…. Johnny H Lee not got no ugly angle you think I don’t f****** know something.

    Marshalls do the right thing Norman die yellowish hair righteous types….. Greeting card style Bible…. Money ties.

    Johnny H Lee I’m keeping my selfish way.
    Not wearing the yoga Bible James Lord God the Father man religious.

    Not wear the yoke of a man. Not wear the yoke. Not food for. Means Johnny H Lee not give up my best looks dark.

    when I was going up the elevator and I saw the reflection by it really feels more dark inwardly normal.

    I don’t want to see the reflection of James I don’t want to see the reflection of man.

    another thing that’s when things are getting better a bit don’t bother those people either the people that’s a bringing me stuff when did things to get better a bit better don’t bother in those people either.

    I don’t give a f*** the s*** they right or wrong.

    trivia question…. if you shoot to kill a good or bad on the street…. which one you not go to jail for…..

    Bulshit they cannot.

    Johnny H Lee stay in the dark immune. Sherilyn Fenn is darker Johnny H Lee is darker.

    Johnny H Lee not wear no yolk of The h/oly Spi/rit h/oly gh/ost blasphemy against the ho/ly Sp/irit….. Now start to feel much better.

    There’s no babysitter program. Ever.
    Not building for heaven.

    Johnny H Lee Do blasphemy against who did blasphemy against me…..know what I mean.
    The most perfect way of saying it no mistakes didn’t say any names. Me not against me.

    Pomegranate favorite food I like eat pomegranate. Johnny H Lee is not a dumb fool.

    These types it’s not the bullshiting around type.

    Johnny H Lee not yelling at Sherilyn Fenn Johnny H Lee me not against me.
    Johnny H Lee me not yelling at me.

    Johnny H Lee stay on the past dark. Mines.
    Point of no return. Johnny H Lee not a virgin.

    Time…..
    |
    |
    |. They Cannot Explain All That
    |. Frauded Time.
    Time……

    No refunds no refunds no refunds no refunded no refund no Indian giver no refunds no refunds no refunds ever.

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  • Johnny Lee

    They Cannot ScapeGoat….That Religion….Or Righteous…. Reason Why.

    Johnny H Lee is darker it blends right in it means it just is it cannot be stolen.

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  • Johnny Lee

    It adds up though.

    Johnny H Lee I’m keeping my smartphone. Johnny H Lee I’m keeping sex humping. I’m never going to overcome. I don’t want to overcome it. Choice. Made up mind.

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  • Johnny Lee

    What do they mean don’t put it on this site.
    What do they mean don’t put it on the site.

    It cannot betray righteously this fool.

    Duck and Cover method scheme to run off a Duck and Cover and come back until When Not Dead Or. I think it means you cannot kill this fool they made a big mistake.

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  • Johnny Lee

    You know what I think long time ago.

    Jesus not & Cannot When Not Bowed To No M/an Cannot pass none of my stuff around they cannot keep it….

    Johnny H Lee be with women.

    Formula…. Johnny H Lee moved on women. I’m keeping my selfish way. Not food for. Already crushed God the Father. Johnny H Lee is not righteous not going to conform to no righteous. Not going to be no scapegoat for no righteous not going to suffer for righteous. Johnny East with the spoon inwardly. I don’t dish it off on the floor. Do they cannot do righteousness.
    Fix fix fix don’t put don’t put Foster Korean parents.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Johnny H Lee I’m keeping my smartphone.

    Not food for. No sacrifice my best look at tribute skills for no majority.

    No I don’t like spilled milk phrase.
    The shoes don’t go my feet don’t go.

    Consider trying to harm any of my stuff for like a clothing store. They trying to physical harm. Not give up my best. Not Giveth My Best. How To Crush The Righteous Religion That Says That……………………………………………………………..

    Do not bother silently either.

    Some stuff I think.

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  • Johnny Lee

    That assuming….Cannot assume on me. Find very dangerous.

    Johnny H. Lee Is Keeping Sex…. Humping….Not Overcome It…. Choice.

    Not Stupid.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Going to be blasphemy against the
    -[holy Spirit]-

    Starting To Feel Better…. Johnny H. Lee Immune With The Dark.

    Which Not Love….Not Tolerate Them Religion….The Nor/Way Ko/reans. The Ko/reans That …..Who Told Them About The Flame…. Mexican The Orange…..Ko/rean The Blue…. Johnny H. Lee The Darker….The Black Of The Flame….The Color Of My Clothes. They Who….& Who Told Them….No Can….Cannot Steal From The Dark…. Understand….Not Going To Be Yellow For Them….Do Not Blame S.F. J.H.L….Because Said….When They Get Hurt….Do Not Progress….They Cannot Kill In Any Way Of Strangle or Suffocating Methods By Use Of Some Foster Parents….Too Late….They Crossed The Line….Have To Fix.
    Don’t Give Shit They Right Or.

    Because….They Religion….Not Be Good For Them.
    Not Walk Around For Them.

    Details Why….

    Don’t Bring Bi/ble…..Not For But/hdda M/an Confused.

    Do Not Interference With Our Me Stuff….Well Being….More Important….Than The Bothering…..Law …. Religion….Is That How The Country Is…. Something Not….Then Other Methods How To….They Cannot Kill This Fool To Have…..Not Interference With Our Me…. Well Being….No Arrest No Busted….No Bothering….When They Hear & Read Like That…. Johnny H. Lee Gets Stuff. Fixing Basic Stuff….Etc….

    Some GANSTER THUGS Maybe NERDS….The Je/sus People….

    Because Why….Talking Smack Don’t Bother Not Bite The Bullet..

    Johnny H. Lee Rejected The Cross…. Understand…..

    Johnny H. Lee Is Keeping Sex…. Humping…. Sexual Intercourse….I Plan On Keeping It….Never Going To Overcome It..

    No Excuses.

    Straight Enemy…..The Bi/ble Buhhdda M/an The Confused.

    It’s The Other Way Around.

    Not Talking Shit Or Smack To This Site.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Do Not Betray Righteously Either. Do Not Betray Bothering Either….Do Not Betray Silently Either.

    No Luck…..Bad Karma Against They….Not Against S.F. J.H.L.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Do Not Focus On Our Me Personal Stuff…..
    Don’t Give a Shit Right Or….

    Must Of Crossed The Line…..

    They Cannot Silently Either….Try To Grab Something & Think…. Framework…..

    Like Grabbing The Side of Highway The Concrete & Think.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Still Keeping….Don’t Ever Let Go….Not Ever Let Go.

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  • Johnny Lee

    I Don’t Like Testoster…..one.

    M/an Just Doesn’t Fit. It’s Not Going To Fit.& Do Not Try To Fit It. Makes It Worse On Them.

    I Was Always Like That…Though.

    Well I Gained Weight Permanently. Plan On Keeping It On Choice.

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  • Johnny Lee

    I’m Not Depressed Never Depressed…..I Don’t Need Bothering Righteously Either.

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  • Johnny Lee

    I said you cannot use me for the Hollywood thing. Cannot try to mess me up later.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Not going to pass no test provoked I’m going to do it.

    Do not provoke.

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  • Johnny Lee

    I’m keeping my hair slicked.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Johnny H Lee I’m keeping my hair slicked.

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    • Johnny Lee

      The RETARDS Bible Buhhda M/an Book….

      Confused Era….

      Johnny H Lee be with women. I’m not confused.

      Not give it to -[M/an]-
      That’s what they tried to steal…. They cannot.

      Johnny H. Lee got the inwardly drawing.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Johnny H Lee gained weight feels Like everything sticks. Johnny H Lee getting used to gain weight.

    PERMANENTLY.

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  • Johnny Lee

    They not going to be acting up on me. Johnny H Lee smokes meth. The fun I need in order to digest and gained weight. Cannot bust up my medical Transit.

    Where is it going not give is endorphins and stuff. What meant meaning meant.

    Another important thing I need to have money. To buy all my hygiene and stuff.

    No….get you back….no retaliatory….no rebound.

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    • Johnny Lee

      Johnny H Lee reject punishment.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Johnny H Lee I’m keeping my selfish ways. Means I moved on with women. not wear the yoke of the Bible not wear the yoke of the Buddha man not wear the yoke. Not imprisoned.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Blasphemy against eventually the odds are…..

    Not food for M/an…. Not food for them. Not in prison by them.

    The radiator not for free.

    Not for God not married to God the Father.
    Not married to Buddha man.
    Not married to man.

    Not going to die for them.

    Johnny’s a darker doing it till I get to have no consequences then.
    I keep on.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Blasphemy against eventually the odds are…..

    Not food for M/an…. Not food for them. Not in prison by them.

    The radiator not for free.
    The Radiator Not For Free.

    Hate & Curse The -[ho/ly SP/rit]-
    Not for God not married to God the Father.
    Not married to Buddha man.
    Not married to man.

    Permeate Sequence….There’s Some On This World That Somehow Try To Follow To Tell Locations To Something About RESTROOM.
    They Cannot Kill This Fool. Or It’s Like They Saying We Don’t Need S.F. J.H.L. Not Give Our Stuff Away.

    They No Relationships….They No Got Draw No Love No One No Nothing.

    Not going to die for them…..M/an Righteous….Bi/ble Buhhdda M/an Bullshit Confusion.

    Not Passing To Pain….Means Not For M/an.

    S.F. J.H.l. Not Passing For Them.

    Johnny’s a darker doing it till I get to have no consequences then.
    I keep on.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Johnny H Lee I said you cannot use me for that Hollywood thing again

    Don’t try to betray silently don’t do that not very nice.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Not Die For G/ od The FATHER….Ever.
    Some Stuff That Realize When Dark….The Thing Is It Blends In…. Immune In The Darker.

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    • Johnny Lee

      I’m Not Righteous….. NotRighteous….. NotReligious…..

      Johnny H. Lee Goes With Sense One.

      Just Realized….Not Die For Those Yellowish Hair Righteous Types ….Using Jesus People….. GANSTERS THUGS Maybe NERDS…..

      I’m Not Jesus People.

      NotReligious.
      NotRighteous.
      Don’t Assume.

      Not a Disadvantage.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Johnny H. Lee Gained Weight. I Plan On Keeping Weight On…..

    NotReligious…..

    NotRighteous….

    I Don’t Even Read That Book….

    Not Starve Or Fasting….
    I Mean It!!!!

    Not GIVETH….
    Trust Me That.

    I Find It Very Important To Say Some Stuff.
    Because I Do Not Like That Spilled Milk Theory.

    Spilled Milk….Meaning….Cheat Style From a Certain Standpoint Which…..Try To Steal Rob Of From a Certain Standpoint….

    They Don’t Got It Like That.

    Not For Free….Said….Good Or Bad….I Don’t Think Anybody Can Survive…..Not With Saying & With The Money……

    Johnny H. Lee Not A Virgin.

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  • Johnny Lee

    I’m Not Suicidal….Far From….Me Not Against Me.

    NotReligious.
    NotRighteous.

    Absolutely Not Suicidal Tendencies At All Whatsoever….Ever.

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  • Johnny Lee

    NotReligious….
    NotRighteous….

    Partial Love….

    Not Love For G/od The Father or Buhhda M/an

    Not Die For Religious Religion.

    Johnny H.Lee Disobey Not Obey Who’s Trying To Control Me That Don’t Fit….

    -[M/an]- Do Not Fit.
    Not Ever Going To Fit.

    There’s a Phrase That I Read….The -[Man’s That No Fit]-

    Johnny H. Lee Not To -[M/an]- Not Married To -[M/an]-

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  • Johnny Lee

    Not Married To Man.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Rejected Punishment.

    Not Repenting Not Repent Not Repented.

    Not Married To Man.

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  • Crystal Alvarez

    My situation is rare yet so common..with traumatic childhood causing me to rebel but I was able to prove ppl wrong(you know all the”you can’t” “you won’t””your nothing”etc) then I guess I needed or still am learning some lesson of life. I was suicidal in 2017 now it’s a… thought but I know I don’t want to die. I lost custody of my kids which I NEVER imagined it was possible, I lived for them. The only people who love me not because I’m family and I pushed them away. No matter how much I believe I love them, my actions say other. It’s hard IT’S SO SO HARD!! I know what I have to do but it’s as if I’m reliving my childhood again. The situation im in has gotten family involved who have taken over my soul… my thoughts.. emotions.. beliefs.. goals. Self esteem. Privacy almost everything I am. But it’s being done in such a MINDboggling way. That anyone I talked to about it is now getting distant as I push them away with every breath I take which seem to be becoming harder to take..I haven’t been able to think about having goals because the voices that once pushed me to be more are.. now pressuring me to contemplate suicide. I used to find hope by taking time to breathe and float in my own existence of the imaginary clear waters but the water has become polluted with every painful memories I have along with one’s voices have forced me to bring to surface, the way I’m staying alive is by not wanting to break my promise i made to my kids as I hold on to all the name calling from pointing out all my flaws. I refuse to believe this is the life I’ll be living till I die. The feeling of loneliness and no one to talk to is depressing yet brings slight hope you would only understand if you know about remote neural monitoring and stalking. im scared for my life,I wasn’t my kids to know I DO LOVE THEM. I hope the truth comes out.

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  • Johnny Lee

    At CNS Clinical Garden Grove Rolando Mentioned Twice….This Is What It Sounded Like…..Like It Was Rigged…. Involved Possible That Permeate Sequence Dirty Shoes Restroom Trying To Kill.

    Robbery At Apartment MacArthur Park.

    At Octapharma The African Manager Looks Suspicious… Denise.

    Do Not Try To Bother Johnny H. Lee From Making Money

    Is That How The Country Is.
    …..

    Not Fighting For Ko/rean..
    & United States Silently Holocaust The Koreans For The Ko Reans…. Cannot Use Bothering.

    Said Do Not Bother With Rookies & Not Tell Them.

    Very Serious….Do Not Bothering SILENTLY EITHER From Making Money.

    They No Use My $80.00 That..To No Good Of Mankind….Said Do Not Interference With Our Me Stuff or Well Being.

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  • Johnny Lee

    Marshalls Or Looks Similar….?

    Not For M/an.
    Possibly Made Or Caused Me Lose My CA Identification Card.

    Why Not Tell Them Or The Manager at The Place Biomat USA There’s an Emergency….
    Possibly Some M/an Males Group Possibly Trying To Kill With The Use Of Walking Around…. Permeate Sequence….I Don’t Like Aimless.
    Dirty Shoes Then Germs Bacteria.
    Then At 80 To 140 Alot.
    Saying That Similar Saying Cannot Use Restroom. Very Distinctively. Vibe Attitude Behavior.

    Like Comic Books

    Little Bubble With Words…. Explaining What’s.
    Also Verbally.

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  • Johnny Lee

    I Was At Some Hotel 3490 Sunset BLVD Hollywood…..To Use The Restroom Probably Purchase a Drink….Then Sat Down To Call Someone Then These Two Security Gaurds That look Like Federal Or Police an Affrikkan an Caucasian….Said Some Very Out Of Line Something. Bothering They Cannot.

    Johnny H. Lee Choice To Have Money.

    Because That Little Scheme…Beggar.
    Permeate Sequence…. Johnny H. Lee Not Walking Around….Then Dirty Shoes & Little Nick’s & Cuts That I Didn’t Notice….Then Don’t Use The Restroom.

    Heard That The Silent Holocaust Or Something….Those Yellowish Hair Righteous Types or United States of America Or?

    Shoot a Good or Bad Aimlessly Which Not Go To Jail.

    Bullshit…..

    They Cannot Bothering SILENTLY EITHER.

    I Don’t Give a Shit Right Or…..

    I Have To Have Now.

    Johnny H. Lee Betray Those That Try To Betray Me.

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