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Emotions have by far always been one of the most difficult things for me to express. I’ve always had a hard time being comfortable with tears or even showing my happiness. Throughout my battle with depression, I often thought happiness and joy were for others, but not myself.

I thought happiness might be something I never feel. I didn’t think I was worthy of happiness, or joy, or anything positive. I can’t say I come by emotions easily to this day, but I am starting to express them more and more. But mainly the negatives. I have gotten much more comfortable with tears running down my face (though I still try to fight it), and I’m not afraid to say when I’m happy or excited about something.

But one thing I never thought would happen, is that I’d cry tears of joy just because of a pretty good day at work. I literally felt overwhelmed with happiness, love and support and couldn’t do anything other than cry. Basically, my bosses told me I’m a great employee and also a great person sort of out of the blue. It just made me feel so appreciated and welcomed.

If you had asked me two years ago if I cry often, I’d have said no. But after this last week, I think I’ve cried happy tears more times than I’ve cried sad tears in my entire life. Did I mention I bawled my eyes out at my friend’s wedding? Yeah…I was so overwhelmed with happiness and love for my friend getting married that I spent the majority of the evening crying. Yet again, I was crying happy tears.

“So what?” you might ask. Well, as someone who has been fighting depression for the majority of their life, emotions have been difficult to express, especially the positive ones! But you know what? Here I am, an emotional human being who cries tears of sadness and of happiness, who has rough days but also exceptional days, and who is still here to tell their story.

Always remember: today might be hard, but tomorrow will be easier.


  • Arran McMurrough

    I love this. I have had Depression all my life and I have PTSD, ADD and was born with Epilepsy and over 200 allergies. I have watched 6 people in my family kill themselves. The latest was a 13 year old niece in Montana. It became easy and strong of her to take a gun and end it. I never really saw her happy. Im telling you all this so you know that one man who has watched his family get buried far to young. Suicide is a responsibility for all of us. If someone in my family kills themself? My responsibility was being around more. It was my responsibility to ask them if they are ok. So I will ask you. Are you ok? I hope so. I understand depression far to well. But I fight mine daily and it is dangerous. But also I love life to much to take myself out. Please know Arran is thinking of you and I hope your well. If you need an ear then contact me. I can and will help. Cry some more tears of joy for me lil lady.

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  • WIggins

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    I cried happy tears for the first time in my life yesterday. My boyfriend took me out on an amazing surprise date. He had been planning the entire night for 3 weeks. It was absolutely beautiful and memorable. As I sat at dinner with him, I just suddenly realized that he really truly loved me. I also have depression.. as well as anxiety, a panic disorder, a impulse control disorder, and a handful of others.. essentially.. I’m pretty messed up. I never thought that I was worthy of love. I never felt like I deserved it. And realizing that he really does, just made me break down crying happy tears. And I cried happy tears again tonight when he asked me to move in with him. I never in my life thought that I’d ever be happy enough to cry, and, if you’re reading this, and you’re as ‘sick’ as I am and feel hopeless; just know that I have been where you are and please don’t give up. Last year, around this time, I was in a hospital after a suicide attempt. One year later, I’m happier than I’ve ever been. It may look dark and shit right now, but just keep pushing.

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